Breakups leave me emotionless. Distant. Indifferent. No feeling whatsoever towards him. I've attempted reconciliation at some points - never works. How do people make it work again? I don't see any solution. We try to talk - why? What happened? What can I do better? And I just sit there - absolutely nothing to say. I am hollow and blank. I guess when it's over, it's over. I can't put the pieces back together. I can't even be a decent friend.
I suppose my way of coping is to keep up with a busy schedule. I thrive on that - I love having something to do every minute of the day. I perform at a higher level when I'm kept on my toes. When I'm not in a relationship, I am busy and happy. When I meet someone worth spending time with, I clear my schedule and make time because I want to. I don't see it as giving anything up; I'm gaining something better. Then when it's over, I pick up the single life again, right where I left off. Maybe that's my coping mechanism. I kinda think it's just my normal life. Then how do you fit the ex into your regular life as a friend? I'm back into my busy schedule and
Like he said, I just don't know what to do anymore. Maybe I'm gonna go watch The Notebook right now, and maybe I'll cry. That might be good; see if I have any shred of emotion left in me.